002 What does it feel like to start a blog?

Wow. I just Published my first post. This feels amazing. Such a relief. Or am I just wanting it to feel good? Hahahahahaha no, it feels great. A weird sort of bliss actually. None of this is about me. There’s a great plan at work. I have no idea what it is, but I would love to know more. I guess all I can do it keep listening to what’s in front of me, what’s around me, and respond to what the universe wants. Maybe I just need to get the ball rolling, to build momentum – for my daily practice, and for this blog itself – and then something good will happen. Ha! Something good has already happened! I realized my fears are the signal for what I need to do. Run towardmy fears, not away from them. That’s how we grow, that’s how we mature. If we stay in our comfort zone, we can’t improve. We can’t find more. We can’t go beyond. We can’t transcendanything – our bodies, our minds, our current circumstances. When we let go – let go of our feelings, our judgments (of ourselves and others), our preferences, our likes and dislikes, our visions or beliefs about what the world is, or what the world should be, then anything is possible. Everythingis possible. And then the entire universe comes to us.

Ha. Or maybe I’m wrong? Well, what’s the worst that could happen? The upside is bliss, what some might say is heaven on earth. And the downside is… ??? …maybe a bit of judgment from others? Ma…maybe … …embarrassment? …maybe… …

I’m having a hard time coming up with the worst case scenario. I just keep getting this sense of bliss. My eyes are welling up with tears. I just want to let go completely and never grab hold again…

I’m thinking too much. If I keep thinking about this too much, I won’t publish; I’ll talk myself out of it. Let’s go. Time to submit Post #2.

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